tons of LOVES

2006-04-17T21:42:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really hate myself for being so stubborn or wilful
i always to do stuff to purposely hurt myself over and over again
emotionally i mean
the thing has ald been over for a while
and i purposely wanna dig things out again
make myself upset up and down
and fall out with another friend
its totally infuriating
i thought i had ald accepted the fast
that they dont like me
and i must bagua until i get all the facts
i finally realise what it means by
better to know less than more
it might be just too hard for me to take
and now i just pissed a fren off
how wonderful
haha
I HATE MYSELF FUCK YOU
it just make me hate the world more!
cause the more i think the more i just turn away from God
i wanna remove that plank

2006-04-15T11:22:00.000+08:00

went for mass with my sis ytd
then went down to cineleisure to collect
my looonnnggg awaited hair curler
didnt work well though
haiya
so sad
>.<
anyway
it was a pretty cool out with my YOUNGER sister
we argued in the middle of the mass
over a packet of tissue
apparently
i asked her to bring tissue
she tot i brought
then she raised her voice at me
and asked me to shut up
like wth!
got really pissed off
and she clean her mucus on MY JACKET
i swear i'm nvr going to wear that jacket anymore
i got that jacket for myself
and she took to wear it
feel like slapping her
so many times somemore
wth!
>.<
anyway
took neos
and then home
made a fool of myself at pasta mania
cause i spilled cheese over the table
oh well haha

2006-04-13T19:45:00.000+08:00

they are so contradicting sometimes
sometimes the feeling they give me
when i'm with them
is a relaly lovely feeling
like friends, true friends
and sometimes
the feeling is just a cold shoulder
i'm like caught in the middle
and i dont noe what to do
its fustrating
i just realise
i dont have anyone to reply on
to talk to
to lie onto
sg, lz
all gone
chased away by me
so much for what u have done, christine TAN!
>.<
sucks
fuck it

and i'm feeling like what ppl usually say
"spiritually low"
and i just cant feel God at times
i tried tlaking to him
i just seem to have much doubts
i dont wanna feel this way
but i just dont understand why God made my life this way
why others can have life that i envy so much
>.<
i know homily always say
dont envy
dont be jealous
its just the evil taking over me kinda thing
...
fuck it
i dont noe why i'm feeling this way
i so need someone to guide me

2006-04-08T15:09:00.000+08:00

xueting said ms low thinks i'm a lonely person
haha
i think i haven felt this way for a long time ald
used to have friends and all
now
i haven talk to cindy for WEEKS
fuck sheryl
lalu abit here and there
not as much as before
jocelyn abit here and there
we've drifted apart during the dec hols
so its like ___ now
xueting pretty ok
but oh well
its not affecting me much
i guess
but it just hurt when i read their blogs
and see them so caught up with their life
when i WAS struggling to catch up before
but not now
i've thought alot
and i thought its btr for me to let go ya?
anyway
my church peeps are bunch of sweeties
msged me and ask if i'm fine
guess God's trying to comfort me
through them
thank God

2006-04-08T14:54:00.000+08:00

haven blog for a while
have been chasing this taiwan drama
"it started with a kiss"
A REALLY NICE SHOW
awww
i'm totally in love with the male lead
haha
the show's more for girls
who love to daydream
:D

mugging now!
studied chem in the morning
rate of reaction
i'm going to fail my chem test ald
oh well
doing bio notes
saw this
"In late-term, “partial birth” abortions, the baby is manipulated into the breech birth position, then labor is induced. At the end of the delivery, the baby’s head is held inside the mother’s vagina (so the birth isn’t “official”) while a suction device is inserted at the top of the baby’s spine to remove his/her brain. When the baby is dead, the head is allowed to be born. "

WHAT THE MANY FUCK OK!
though i hate children
but i think this is FARRR too cruel
dont wan baby then dont have SEX
>.<

2006-04-04T21:43:00.000+08:00

had this god parent and parent meeting in church on sunday
well i got to know my god parents much btr
despite being pretty close to them ald
lunch at some dimsum restaurant at marina sq
AWESOME!
just make me put on weight
but the meal was sumptous man
well shopping to digest the food
hoho
got tops at Zara
nth much at topshop and mango
oh well
haha
dad and the rest left first
left me and auntie carol
we walked til our legs ached badly
ate hokkaido ice cream
its AWESOME again
haha
auntie carol fetched me home
we got lost
instead of going home
we were travelling the wrong way
figured ourselves how to get out of town
haha
she's funny
went back to her house
and went out for dinner again
kinda ridiculous
cause ate lunch not long ago
and we're eating heavy dinner
oh well
enjoyed myself
anyway it was really cool
break from all the shit i'm going through
talked to God
i believe strongly that he's always by my side
Praise the Lord

monday
poiching pri came
mentored them
obviously we played pretty badly
cause we didnt rehearse that piece
mr tan's fed up with sec 4s
oh well

tues
got busted
for watching VCD
oh well
guess my dad's utterly disappointed
but i cant help it
sch's btr much today
i'm still not talking much to lalu and sheryl
cause obviously they're not in my class
and i dont go for recess anymore
and during chinese class
i cant be bothered to talk to lalu
its pretty hard to hate her
i guess
so i'll just try to ignore her
as for sheryl
she's just a pure bitch
making me sound like i'm the bad person
like WHAT
chiong home
suppose to have tuition
mr ling cancelled it
so xt and me studied chem
we learnt!
:DDD
and studied hist
acccompliissshheeddd
((:

2006-04-01T13:56:00.000+08:00

had band today
mentor rosyth pri sch band
they're so cute okay!
same size or smaller than han xuan
totally lovable
;D
was waiting for the door to open
then mr tan came to talk to me
he asked why my face was sullen recently
i was like
shit u just triggered that tear gland
and i started tearing pretty badly
the tears just rolled down more and more
as he talk
he was like do u feel like crying
i nod my head
and started tearing
haha
he was like you're so disgusting lar!
he kept pestering me to tell him what's the problem
not band not family
but friends
this was what he said
"if she was yr good fren then u guys wouldnt be in this state ald. if u guys were really friends. you wouldnt be crying over her ald right? this is what i think lars"
haha
i took a very long time to accept this fact
not that i take things too hard
but
its how they treat me
i rather have only a friend then a grp of them
i ald realise it long ago
that they werent treating me as one
so i tired my best to fit in
to the extend that now they think i'm acting cute
trying to be someone else
that i wasnt like before
haha
what was me?
do they even know
its just hard to please everyone
its really hard
and i really cant take it
i wake up in the morning
with words/phrases they tell me
"i just dont feel comfortable with you, you understand?"
"i nvr treated u like my best friend before"
"you're such a bitch"
"i just dont like it when u act cute"
"you'll nvr listen to me"
"you're too sensitive"

these words just circle through my mind
everyday every moment
i cant DONT think about it
its hard
the first thing that comes into my mind in the morning
is all these words
and i guess no one will know how i feel
waking up in the morning
with these words haunting me really badly
its sad that i have to face this in my teen life
these emotional scars
is lethal
its killing me
just when
i wonder when
will i find someone that will be able to accept me
haha
when!

2006-03-31T21:09:00.000+08:00

"It is just THAT hard to find people who will stick by you no matter what sort of abuses are hurled at you. It is THAT hard to find people who will not believe the malicious words that are been spoken about you. It is THAT hard to find people who can stand your temper, your insecurities and your emotions."

"It's not worth it, the people there never gave me a chance to change. It was just shit after shit after shit. Your acting, your fake concern, your fake words. It was just an act."

quote from some lj user
haha
thats what i'm going through now.

2006-03-31T21:02:00.000+08:00

TEO XUE TING pretty boy says:
if lydat wont u be isolated and v sad?

something i had been so afraid
that anyone will know
haha
i find it pretty ridiculous
its crap u know?
she ask me this really obvious qn
i have no friends at the moment now
i mean
brief friends
ya of course
many
plentiful
i got no one to talk to in sch
i got no one to high with either
so basically
my life is just to myself
right?
hahaha
cut off connections from the world
i thought it was a pretty good idea
of stopping those comments
always keep yr hp to yrself
that is another way
shut up in sch
so that they cant find faults with u
just try to shut up as much as possible
my motto
it will be hard
but it looks like its the only i can do yeah?
haha

2006-03-31T19:14:00.000+08:00

you were nvr comfortable with me in the first place
i guess in life
we all make new frens
and i WAS one of them
and now that you have made new friends
u simply say u are not comfortable with me
maybe likings change huh
haha

thoughts are haunting me badly
everything i do
i will hestitate 10000 sec
cause whatever i do
ppl have comments
and fuck it
high = act cute
fuck u
i was once afraid of loneliness really badly
i am still now
but not so bad
life still goes on
that pathetic scene
sitting on the stairs
at a corner
eating my bread for lunch
haha
i nvr knew i would end up in such a state
"i thought u very close to her one"
that tells me alot
that i thought u were the one i have left
but u have joined the other side
u detest me too
haha
so hypocritical
so yeah
continue bitching abt me
cause now i knoe
u haven treat me like a friend
i dont see why
i shd be upset over u
haha
so fuck those times
when u said we were besties
fuck ok
FUCK ALL THOSE LIES U GUYS HAVE BEEN SAYING
white lies
haha

2006-03-30T20:10:00.000+08:00

haha
i just realised friends i had with me for the past 2 years
were not really friends
if we were really friends
we wouldnt have bitched abt each other
if we were truly friends
we would just have shoot our comments
straight in each other faces
the pain i'm going through now
haha
its unbearable
everyone around me
EVERYONE
has a best friend
i seem to have a lot of friends
but
haha
none of them are true
i wish i had only one true friend than a grp of
hypocritical friends
who are just a bunch of selfish freaks
they are really self centered
whatever they do is just me myself and i
they nvr thought of other ppl's feeling
they always put themselves first
thats whats really affecting me badly
that i start to get mislead
i dont know what is right
what is wrong
what is against my own consience
cause
i can no longer tell
haha
act cute
i tot we were close enough to show the crazy side of me
they interpret it as acting cute
i seriously dont know what to say
they just think they are perfect in everyway
and me
i'm just another girl
i wasnt one of them in the first place
they had balls to rebel
me?
i dont have
i got nth
they have parents who are as close as friends
me?
i have two strangers as my parents
less ocmmunication
i just cant talk to them like how my friends talk to theirs
haha
i'm envious
i'm envious of everything
they have best friends
they have their own clique
i'm probably not one of them
so many things i regret doing
now i've lost everything
all my friends
and it hurts
it hurts
it really hurts
but i cant do a thing
i'm helpless
i got no one to talk to
haha
cause everyone hates me
they think i'm a poser
i love to act cute
hah
i think they prefer that quiet christine
who nvr fails to shut up
what was the old me?
what what
can someone just fucking tell me
i'm tired
i've been searching too long
those dark secrets kept within me
its tiring
God..
i hope you will be there for me
you will be my best friend
the one that nvr leave me
all my friends have left me
i dont wan to lose u
...
i'm hurting really badly..

2006-03-30T15:25:00.000+08:00

haha
you know what?
i hate you too bitch!
act so what in front of me
haha
you're sure a good actress
;D

2006-03-29T18:36:00.000+08:00

sudden hatred

oh well
everyone's feeling ZZZ nowadays
had been chiong-ing home everyday
but do nth but sit in front of the com
and stone
when i have band
i complain no time
then i'll chiong whatever work i have
study whenever i can
now that i have all the time in the world
i just cant help it
but to just idle and laze around
it gets pretty frustrating sometimes
when u can have a book opened up in front of you
and u nvr get started
oh well
i feel pretty ignored recently
i've no idea why i'm feeling like that
but i cant help thinking of the differences
when i thought i was this really crappy funny person
but it turns out
that i'm just another kid who studies everyday
completely NO social life
no activities
irritating
hot tempered
self centered
evil
bitchy
person
IN SHORT
no life
haha
how contradicting life can be at times
yeah

lalu
though u dont really want to talk about it, but smile! i think everything will end well alright? :D

2006-03-28T19:02:00.000+08:00

just had tuition with xueting
pretty interesting
i'm working hard towards my A
:D
utter dismay
i still need to have sectional
for i dont noe what reason
when we dont have any upcoming event
horrifying
HAIYA
OHWELL

2006-03-25T22:28:00.000+08:00

ok
those retarded pic
:D

2006-03-25T20:44:00.000+08:00

i bet sheryl hates me now
cause i just destroyed her wonderful day
of being a nerd!
>.<
suppose to meet her like pretty early at 12
but she had sth on
then waited all the way to 2.30 lar!
that woman
oh well
accompanied her to eat
ate buns from crystal jade
that made me pretty satisfied ald
went to city hall
got my top
love it
:DDD
went to cine
settled down at yoshinoya
studied there
my amths qns were too tough
got sick of it
and there was this FLEA market
outside tempting me REALLY badly
so i got distracted
at last
sheryl couldnt take it
she accompanied me over
:DDD
saw a pretty skirt
but haiya
haha
dont wanna buy it on impluse
went to hula and co
wanted the top sooo much
but too big
CRAP
>.<
walked around
tried clothes for fun
in and out of dressing rooms
haha
pretty fun
cam whored too
upload the pictures when shery;'s online
:D

2006-03-24T19:33:00.000+08:00

i miss shopping badly
that feeling
awwww
went down to town with cindy
she had her dental appointment
got a topshop bag
uh huh
and a FUCKING $9 _____
wa lao
waste my money
anyway
if u're wondering where i got the money from
its voucher
;D
that's how amazing my life is
i got vouchers!
:D
anyway
going down to town again with sheryl tml
we're suppose to study and shop
HEEHEE
knowing me
haha
i highly doubt :D

2006-03-23T20:58:00.000+08:00

new picture uploaded in the wat suthi album! haha go go see! ;D more retarded pics OF COURSE :D

2006-03-23T17:15:00.000+08:00

sudden craving for eggs!
hard boil eggs!
haha
asked my mom to boil one for me
sound cranky huh!
:DDD
but i love it
haven been down to orchard for shopping
for quite a while
pretty sad
busy with band
and now that i'm free
i'm rushing home everyday
for i dont know what reason
i just love my room!
i'm like forever online
gosh
i better start practising
self discipline
before my grades start dropping!
exams are coming and stuff
i'm still stress abt it
haha
but i dont seem to get started
i start to enjoy chem lessons
pretty much enjoyable now
mr soh's a good teacher
his jokes kinda feel like splashing a bucket of cold water on me
and that wakes me up!
:D
haha
biology is totaly crap
i got a total crap teacher
she caught me and xt reading magazine in class
not a big deal actually
but she told mrs lai
which was ______
kinda like death day
mrs lai talked me and xt today
she was like is this yr firt time
HELLO!
she's asking the obvious lar
anyway
she was in good mood
so she didnt rail at us
oh well
i'm glad i dont have tuition til like april
cause my tutor is on holiday
oh great!

and its my dad and brandon's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TTTAANNNSS!
i did a corny card for my dad
he was laughing away
oh well
i'm a sweet daughter

so what's with that pressure you are giving me!

2006-03-22T20:11:00.000+08:00

i just hate it when i have too much time at hand. i tend to do stupid stuff and just waste my time away. which is RIDICULOUS! i reach home, online until like wee hours. haha i feel URGGHHH! like i'm thrwoing away money kinda feeling. oh well. talking abt money. I'M SO BROKE THIS MONTH. i'm left with like 20 bucks this month. and GUESS WORT? i just bought a hollister top online. oh great. haha $10 fly away. its okay. i like it :D awwww, i miss the thai guys. but no more torhuey mood. suddenly feel like studying. s.s period tml! SO EXCITED. looking forward to listen in mrs sim's class. me and doreen were like answering much of her qns. she was impressed and she got HIGH! haha :D

2006-03-21T16:31:00.000+08:00

thursday
got a dressing down from my dad
i felt so bad
that i teared
that was a pretty bad start
for a camp i've been looking forward to
bought whole load of junk food
drag it to the band room
put our bags somewhere
and rehearse
for the thai piece we're going to play for the thai ppl! rushed down to the foyer. kinda nervous lars, haven seen them for quite awhile. then they came in SBS chartered bus which was _____ haha. played and went up. the SL had to bring the wat suthi ppl around. and it was AWKWARD lars! i didnt even talk to them. just joined yu qing and bring them around the school. we were quite nasty cause we were just talking amongst ourselves. then the thai ppl just tailed us. OH WELL! then lunch. then it was sectionals! like wth. we hardly tlak and BOOM we had to have sectionals together. so well, sectionals turned out fine. cause CHI from kasesart took us. so yeah. went through the pieces. laughed and joke around. then section games. 1000 times btr. we played wacko at first. got boring den we played monkey! i had NVR run so much in my entire life ok! i was EXHAUSTED! then played captains ball. they're pretty good players. only han xuan and us, we were like SNATCHING the balls away. DAMN hiong lars! :D sweat like shit, we were running in FULL SCH UNIFORM! which was totally retarded, i wonder who suggested that we report in that man. haha then shifted the benches and stuff up, got ready for full band. bathed and full band rehearsal. the band was BIG lars! >.< went to sleep. the first night was in AVA room so the floor was terribly hard. the meals were kinda gross. SICK! wort to do, its CAMP food

friday
did breakfast duty. just stood there like some idiot distributing the lunch boxes. they were nice to take for us. then we had band practice and stuff. lunched then full band rehearsal AGAIN. pretty tiring to shift the stuff up down, down and up! >.< dinner was BUUFFEEETT! fantabulous i tell you! our section's the most kiasu section on earth! jian hua, huaisian and rest chiong for take food. 3 plates full of dishes and 7 plates of spagetti for us lars. not forgetting one whole plate of otah. ate until like i took estacy[?], super high! compete with jian hua and gobbled down 8 otahs ok! EIGHT BLOODY OTAHS! ic ould feel them burning in my stomach. haha the wat suthi guys were like "are u mad??" BUT JOOJOO BEST ME TO IT! he ate 9. haha oh well. then band practice again. we're practically practing the whole day since we're out the whole day on sat. i guess we gave the wat suthi ppl rather bad impression cause huaisian didnt have a file so we had to share like mad. 3 to 1 stand. thats like fine but worse thing was we didnt have enough scores! nut was like oh, smacks his forehead. >.< oh well. haha in the end before we slept we had to like find all the extra scores and find a spare file for that woman.

sat
ALL SET for our outing! i was expecting LOADS of fun which we did have. :D changed coins at the provision then brought them to jalan kayu to have breakfast so they didnt eat the lunch box which was then again HORRIBLE, like fried maggi mee without salt and oil. COMEON! walk to the bus stop, they were like "singapore's modern man!" and they think the bus stop is FAR! wth. haha it was just a walking distance lars. bus-ed down. bluffed the uncle they were students. and SWAY SWAY, this bus attendant came to check. and they had to pay extra 90 cents. the auntie cheat money lars! wth! paid 55 cents ald still need to pay addition of 90 cents! then i was like WHY cannot just top up lehh? the auntie started nagging. pissed off lar. nvm. reached there. we ate tissue prata and ice crema prata. they LOVE it lars. i'm glad they did cause they didnt pay me back the money for the prata! >:/ oh well. Nut kept taking my phone to see my pic! so pai seh lars. and he refused to return! still bluffed me he didnt take it when i tot i lost my phone! they're fun! haha then bus-ed back. SWAY SWAY SAME BUS UNCLE! then they paid full amt. went home to change coins for them. took a train down to esplanade. chatted loads and joke around, laughing at each other, we were like teaching them chinese words and they taught us thai words. "enriching" haha we were talking so loudly in the train that Ton was like "everyone looking at us" haha oh well! they looked around and stuff. went to merlion, didnt noe they went there before, waste my time lars! >.< haha then went to lucky plaza, lunched. everyone was pretty tired by then. they kept looking at mp4. Boss intend to ask his mother to bring him here to buy. so like WAO! rich lars. haha went to far east. they hardly shopped, they just kept going to the toilet. they prolly spent tall their 10 cents going to the toilet. OHWELL! went down to sentosa. they wanted to take cable car but so far lars. took the shuttle bus in then went to siloso beach. they damn hiong lars, took off their clothing and just kick soccer with some other guys they dont know. opp boss and joojoo played with us. we were throwing sand at each other and splashing water. plain fun! :D we kept sabo-ing each other. wanted to throw han xuan down but he too powerful cannot lift him. haha OHWELL! they damn hiong lors. go buy pants and change in the middle of the beach and just jump into the water. was late for the musical fountain cause the Q for the bus was bloody long lars. so we ran all the way there. jianhua and huaisian RAN damn fast. like wth! tonw as in front with them too. then i was running like hell. i hardly run u know. so its a GREAT achievment! :D Nut was running with me. we lost jian hua and huaisian somewhere. amanda and the rest was so slow at the back. had to ask for directions. then went down the DONT NOE HOW MANY flight of escalators man! ran all the way there end up the show started ald. so we didn get to watch it. we just sat around to chat. decided to exchange our teeshirt! haha was duper hungry lors! we had one whole bus to ourselves. made alot of noise. caling each other nickname! in thai somemore. SUPER FUN! :D back to sch. wanted to eat dinner together but end up they couldnt. so went down to j8 to meet kendrick. had dinner. he was nice to accompany me back home! yay! haha SLLEEEPP! i just fucking love my bed

sunday!
OUR BIG DAY!
bought breakfast for the thai hornists! report to sch. they were already warming up ald by the time we reached there. so set up our horns, warmed up together. then sorted out the files. followed by breakfast! we rushed like fuck cause we were running late. we were practically gobbling the food. the wat suthi ppl were duper late lors! run up and down to hurry them. then ran down all the way. phew. at last got their horns up the bus, then got our stuffs. went down to the foyer. waited for our buses. sweat like hell again. i miss the bus trips. we haven take bus for a very long time man! >.< reach esplanade. go to our dressing room. SHIIOOKK ok! bloody cosy man! :DDD very comfy. had presonal toilet somemore! set up instrument had rehearsals. then we changed and had combine rehearsals. phototaking. the photographer was damn funny. everyone was laughing. oh well we had fun! dinner! btr than before so not so bad. wateched tv then got ready. wasnt nervous at all lars. no feeling. got up on stage performed. then while the wat suthi perform we were resting in our changing room. we had a speaker so we could hear the concert hall! SHIOK! combine pieces. the last part was FUN! when we went down the stage, ton was like "wo hen kuai le" HAHA! they're so cute lars! :DDD then moxi came back stage. we took pic together and pack up and off we go. loaded the horns up the bus. ran all the way out cause we tot we're going to miss the bus END UP the buses HAVEN come like WTH! >.< oh well. haha took pics while waiting. we were smiling wide. at last the concert was over lars. very glad. but i'm going to miss everything so much. my horn, my section, the band room, the bus trips, the rushing.. i'm missing it now ald. then bus-ed back. they gave us souvenior and took pics! home! sch at 8.45 so shiok!

monday
went to sch late
after sch
went to change and meet huaisian at j8. got some stuff for them. then we used icing to write their names on marshmallow. pretty tedious. j8 was crowded. >.< didnt really care if ppl was watching us. we just did. made a mess. haha but we CLEAR the mess. train down with eloys to the airport. took sky train to terminal 1. ate at burger king. in the end we were late. they had arrived ald. so we just said hi. took pics and gave them the stuff. was pretty solemn. teared when they leave. we were like standing outside the glass pane and just waving constantly. teared rather badly. ton and boss just waved and waved. haha they're sweet. oh well. back to normal life. no more exciting stuff! haha moxi and i intend to go down to thailand end of year! excited! :D i'm missing them so much now! all the fun we had. i wonder will we ever see them again. i bet no.. oh well
i love THEM!

PICS HERE!
HEREHEREHERE

2006-03-20T00:49:00.000+08:00

haha
concert's finally over!
thanks for those who came
and those who DIDNT come
thanks for yr spending yr bloody fucking money to buy some fcuking ticket that you didnt want to buy and u decided to be selfish and keep it to yrself. i mean there were other ppl from outside sch who wanted to buy the $16 tickets. and some fuckers just decided to not come and waste that seat. HAHA oh well. :D i got lovely friend, who came down to support me! LALU WWUUUU! thanks, i mean u might think its nth much but it means alot to me and thank u for making my day :D oh fuck those bloody idiots! haha the most impt thing was i enjoyed the performance and the rest, u just missed a good show :D

2006-03-18T23:06:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THE THAI GUYS!
:DDD
they're fun, loving and superb!
had tremendous fun with them today!
oh well
despite THAT awkward time i had with this thai guy
but the rest of the time
we played
was SONG!
we were just speaking in their lang, and they were speaking in our lang! its really "enriching"! HAHA

i love isolating myself :D
if only i live in my own world
OHWELL

2006-03-15T21:04:00.000+08:00

ok!
i'm off to camp!
see you guys on monday!
or u guys will see me on sunday!
for those who wanna take yr tickets from me
i'll msg u soon!
cause i haven asked the teachers yet and stuff
FOR THOSE WHO'S GONNA MISS ME DAMN FUCKING BADLY
just comment on my post!
:D
in case
u didnt notice
this layout
allows comments
so yupp
bye!

2006-03-15T17:09:00.000+08:00

FUCK IT
i'm stress OKAY
felt like crying during tuition, it was too hard for me to take it that i really felt like giving up. i've got tons of HW not done and i prolly wouldnt have the time to complete it!
cause i have camp til sat night
and sunday night
i'm prolly home at midnight
dont feel like going to sch on monday
and my tutor was like "everyone's going shopping, and i'm tutoring from 8am til night, so cham!" that added salt on my wound, that would be like a pot of salt on my wound okay! DAMN BLOODY FUCK! im not pissed with her, its just she was reminding how pathetic i was. HAH! everyone out there are enjoynig their holidays, when i'm just praying hard that time pass slowly so that i have time to complete my stuff. HAH! i know i'm not the only feeling this way but pardon me, i just wanna fucking let it out! >:\ nvm, SHOPPING IS NO FUCKING FUCK BIG DEAL! I RATHER STAY AT HOME AND DO THE FUCKING HW! I'LL BE SMARTER THIS WAY :DDDD FUCK SHOPPING! FUCK SHOPPING FUCK SHOPPING! HURRAY TO STUDIES, HURRAY TO STUDIES! haha i'm mad
save me

2006-03-14T23:38:00.000+08:00

went down to queensway
got the RED fbt shorts!
I'M FUCK HAPPY!
:DDD
the last piece
with my size
:DDD
i'm a happy woman
had hotdog and ice cream
so happy
:D

2006-03-13T15:30:00.000+08:00

I will never be the same again,
I can never return, I've closed the door.
I will walk the path, I'll run the race
And I will never be the same again.

Fall like fire, soak like rain,
Flow like mighty waters, again and again.
Sweep away the darkness, burn away the chaff,
And let the flame burn to glorify Your name.

There are higher heights, there are deeper seas,
Whatever you need to do, Lord do in me.
The Glory of God fills my life,
And I will never be the same again.

fund fiesta on saturday
it was hell to sit under the sun for like an hour
and play ok!
it was plain torture
but oh well
free sun tanning session
:DDD
walked around with frens
Q-ed for 20 min for this dumb prata with hotdog
but it was nice
left for church camp
went down to church
waited for daniel to fetch me from there
waited for like 1/2hour
called up solange, rachel to complain lar
anyway
sharon was driving
really cool
down to 49 holland road
i wouldnt say the place was fantastic
with the best facilities
but it was quite alright
all the girls slept in the same dorm
so we combined the beds and stuff
went down for sessions
dinner
bathed
LAURA came :D
confessions!
i feel DAMN good after that
really peaceful and "clean"
praise and worship the next morning
sessions all the way
BBQ at night okay!
DAMN SHIOK
kelvin, ambrose and me had a pit to ourselves
so we were just BBQ-ing
den i cut my toe!
against some sharp material
so i teared!
paul goh was like
"WORT HAPPEN? aiiyooo"
he kept saying i was poor thing
cause i walked in circles and no one help me
but i wasnt actually
but oh well
haha
washed the wound
its painful ok!
kelvin was some idiot who continued BBQ-ing
he apologied later
so YOU ARE FORGIVEN ok
had fun
we won a bottle of coke
it was totally HEAVENLY
imagine drinking tap water for two days
coke was just simply heavenly
everyone shared
so sweet ok!
some stuff happen and yadadada
after that changed
went to walk around
kendrick, laura, gareth, timothy, terence, nat, shermaine and me
we were wandering around
talking til wee housr ok!
like 4am in the morning?
so cool
chatted LOADS!
knew quite abit of gossips
ambrose talked to me and stuff
CHEER UP ASS!
kept kajiao-ing terence
about bangala and coolie shit
he's this weird funny guy lars!
den i couldnt take it
went to slp
then i woke up again
they were making so much noise at the stairs lars!
i wasnt fully awake
so was really blur
went back to slp again
morning
cleaning up
I MOPED THE FLOOR LARS!
its an achievement ok!
washed the paveway
the kitcehn
then session which was
basically to thank our friends
its really amazing
i've been with this bunch of crazy ppl for 4 years
we all grow up together
after this year
no more crapping in class
no more HIGH-ing in camp
no more laughs to tummy ache
i'll miss them so much
thought abt it
teared
i really will miss laura and rachel so much
i've been closer to rachel so much more this cmap
i really appreciate this friendship
we threesome have
i really love them to bits
thank God for sending me such wonderful ppl
not forgetting my class ppl
we were all praying as a class
i was really touched
cause how often we get to see such scenerio[?]
started tearing badly
thanking God in everyway
got a shock when oliver asked me up
thanks anyway
you've been a great classmate!
;D
jonathan too!
sweet ass!
GOT SO MUCH SHOW TO SEE!
so funny
worteva it is, LAURA i lvoe you ok?
:D
when the time is right
u will know alright?
stop probing!
ah beng was trying to compare height with me
irritating
"li ai pa si bo! :D"
regina jane and guys
can see that we all have been so much closer
i really hate to leave this class
leave the camp
but we still have to
bus-ed back to church
whole class lunched together
cabbed home with ahbeng, ambrose and laura
DEAD BEAT OK!
i need to catch up on my slp

this time it wasnt really spiritual and stuff for me
but it was significant in way
that it is my last camp with my class
through these few days
i've been closer some of the guys
and i realised
some of them can be really fun, crazy and emotional
though it might sound really late
but its btr than not knowing them btr
i always loved camps with them
they never fail to make me laugh til my tummy ache!
RACHEL, LAURA
you guys are the most wonderful friends i ever had
:D
loves!

Jesus Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

2006-03-10T21:42:00.000+08:00

band-ed today
mr tan said we improved
wee happy
:DDD
but oh well
i didnt really know wort i was doing though
band practice was kinda hell today
everything was really irritating my ears
and i got headaches
haha
oh well

fund fiesta tml!
i'm not excited
many ppl prolly
go to st nic's one
cause there's obviously more fun at their sch
ours' like a damn small scale shit
sia suay ourselves
church camp tml
which means
i wont be back til monday
so anything just msg me
i'll try to reply u guys as soon as possible
:D
praise the lord

2006-03-09T19:26:00.000+08:00

oh well
the concert's nearing
we're all getting nervous and stuff
WHY?
because we have prepared so much
slog for months and months
for wort?
for this performance
for our last concert(sec4s)
to showcase the pieces we have played in thai
to showcase the talents we have in band
they might not do so well in their studies
but they have spent all their time practicing their instrument
perfecting their parts
wort they wan to get in return?
they just hope to get
an applause from you guys
we have been working so hard
to earn that applause from you guys
i know the sch might sound nasty
making it complusory for u guys to go for the concert
but pls take it as doing a favour for us
just this once
to attend the concert
we wouldnt wan to peform and play in front of
1000 over empty seats
we wan your support
please
its just one night
that u might slp late
it is not forever
just one late night
u can catch up on yr slp the next day or whenever
but this one night
is prolly the greatest moments of our life
for the band ppl
for the days we have slogged
for the days we have toiled
for the days we have cried
all for this day
this performance to show u guys
so i really really hope
that you guys will turn up
just this one night?
alright?
we need the encouragement too
its not easy
not easy
thanks in advance

2006-03-08T20:09:00.000+08:00

oh well
holiday homework are starting to pile ald
have get back my result slip
but i have calculatored how bad i've done
chinese oral today
i think xu lao shi is going to fail me
cause i didnt know wort the hell i was reading
and wort was the qn he asked
band-ed
went for weekday mass
moses and jenn were shock to see me
HELLO!
haha
oh well
kendrick that ass was there to
ate dinner together
home!
:D

2006-03-06T20:31:00.000+08:00

i'm acutally looking forward
to the concert!
and the band cmap
its realyl cool
we get to bring the guys to sentosa
for a day of fun
i just hope they're not shy and stuff
cause i will be a pity!
>.<

MOXI!
if u're reading this
pls let me know if u still wan the tickets
and you're INVITED to join us at sentosa!
;DDD
cause its a section thing
alriggghhhtt??
msg me baby!

2006-03-03T22:08:00.000+08:00

3 more months to improve my chinese!
i need help!
just speak to me in chinese!
ni hao!

HELL
i got a bitchified bimbotic fucker in my section
he's a bitch!
pis me off real badly

section tee is cocked up

2006-03-02T17:50:00.000+08:00

i hate it
when my mom invades my privacy
and then again
she complains i'm not studying all the time
when yeah fuck
she's 2/3 the time not at home
and BAH
she dont see anything
but she claims i'm not working hard
i'm trying to okay!
this fucking pressure
is hard to take

LIFES BAD!

assembly was just another round
of "pushing you to work hard" session
mr tan was like wanna get into a JC
you btr YADADADA
i'm not confident of getting into a JC
cause the points are fuck low
and bah
i'm btr off dead

2006-03-01T17:31:00.000+08:00

health check up today
dont have to go for PE
YAYness
had a long chat with doreen
we were discussing how to save our skin
history was crap
today is day one
pretty alright
just that
i was so hungry that my stomach ache
haha
so just ate fruits
to stop my stomach from torturing me further
went to central with lalu
ordered my contacts
she went to watch FD3 with her classmates
and i went home
and come home
COMPLETELY NTH TO DO!
hmmm
will do differentiation
then tuition
life's boring
section tee is COCKED up too
haiya

dont treat us like dirt
we are not invisible too

2006-02-27T20:09:00.000+08:00

math's quite a bitch sometimes
oh well
life's going on
glenn's really irritating today
he was trying to spray water at me
using eloy's water bottle
so i got fed up
i just poured all the water
i had left in my bottle on him
he was drenched
so yeah
knowing glenn
he just chased me
we were at the sch gate
then he sprayed my back
i was like "FUCK YOU!"
then ms ng walked out
haha
yeah that eng teacher
then she asked
me and glenn to behave ourselves
haha
anyway
i'm going to print my section tee soon
its cool
i love it
:DDD
i'm changing my URL!

2006-02-25T23:34:00.000+08:00

just caught final destination
at tp
dont ask me why i go to such lp place
cause that's the only place that
allows ppl that turn 16 this year
but birth date yet to come
to watch
final destination is NC16 btw
its GRUESOME!
watch only if u have the balls man
cause i was covering my eyes all the way
dman gross
the deaths are so _______
and its kinda exaggerating
this stuff will nvr happen in our daily lives!
but if u're sadistic
this show is perfect for you
:D
damn tired
tuitioned this morning
i'm really poor at indices
that my tutor almost vomit blood ok
BAHHHH<<<<
oh fuck
haha

2006-02-24T19:17:00.000+08:00

drama's over!
it was really cool
nth screwed up badly
so yeah
was a good experience
expect for the part
when i had to run all around
finding mrs lai
helping the girls with make up
but it was wortwhile
hope you guys enjoyed the play

everything's gone down the drain
cause wort i studied for bio
didnt really came out for the test
was like total crap
studied the wrong chap
and all
P&C got a number of qn wrong ald
so haha
thats that
band-ed
i feel ten thousand times btr
cause i didnt really dared to
tell my section how i really felt
and thank you, cheng song
for like voicing out and stuff
pretty emotional
AND GET REAL
wort's wrong with being emotional
at least u get a response
its really cool
when you see yr juniors crying together
cause you noe they feel sth
and thats wort amanda and han xuan did
they're sweet
haha
jason was just laughing all the way
really loudly
dont noe wort's wrong with that guy
weird
i hope after that talk
jian hua will really wake up
though he didnt express much during the whole talk
but oh well
i guess these 3 years are not wasted
:D

my internet is down
and i'm angry!
cause its friday
oh well

2006-02-22T20:26:00.000+08:00

sectionals
rehearsal
forgot to bring my keys
mommy had to fetch me home
>.<

during p.e
:DDD
we were exercising really hard
look at doreen!

haha!
dont you love p.e lessons?
:DDD
she loves her muscles

me and ahliao retarding today!

she diulian-ed

me and my silly section
i just love it when we are not serious

and love me :DDD

2006-02-21T17:49:00.000+08:00

it seems God is answering my prayers
busy with sch work and band practices
had been pigging too much
haven been exercising
have been really really lazy
i'm just getting sloppier each day
things just slips off mind
i almost forget to bring my band uni
for phototaking
until this morning i rmbed
oh well
trying my best
to cope with my studies too
maths has been disappointing
really disappointing
oh well
chem is just another subject
i always fail
i haven been doing bio notes for YEARS
humans i haven touch it yet this year
that's how bad my life is right now
i have a chem test tml
and i am still online
haha
crap

2006-02-15T20:37:00.000+08:00

"There is no such thing in anyone's life
as an unimportant day."

instead!
i'm wasting my time all the time!
oh well
i'm done with s.s
done with revision for friday test
done with my english compo
i'm satisfied!
my day's not wasted!
shiok!

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

Mother Teresa

she's a wonder :D

2006-02-15T15:56:00.000+08:00

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JUST FUCKING SHUT UP OKAY!
its pissing me off
fuck lar!
total crap
piece of shit
call me a bitch

2006-02-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

got my friends some stuff
a big thank you to
lalu : for yr pizza
xueting : for that photo
sengui : for all the stuff!
the video's pretty
i can fit into the shirt! :d
not too big

thanks!

had fun!
home
changed
met sg
train-ed to jurong!
so crap
so far lors
stupid sg kept disturbing me
idiot!
they were resurfacing the ice when we went in
it looks kinda run down actually
with the lousy flooring
the area not very big too
anyway
it wasnt very cold either
so just right
hestitate alot!
for at least 1/2 hour ok!
cause i was damn terrified
the guys skate at this lightning speed
which was killer
everyone all noe how to skate
no one's like fumbling and falling
i was afraid the blade would just cut me when i fall
and blood will just PPOOOWWW out
>.<
at last
decided to go since sg was super disappointed
haha
then got the skates and gloves
went it
DAMN SLIPPERY
but i didnt fall
damn different from roller blading
so insecure
held on the the railings all the time
until towards the end i was like on my own
sg fell 1000000000 times
hilarious
i didnt fall surprisingly
:D
shiok!
after that
our stomach were growling
went to west mall
dined at some thai restaurant
damn shiok!
sg ate like 2 plates fo rice
soooo shiok ok!
home!
my mom was like waiting for me at the void deck
dont noe wort she trying to do
she knows sg and still so wort the fuck
enough of fun!
get down to serious work tml!
study all the way :D

2006-02-12T23:26:00.000+08:00

i'm happy with myself today
rushed home today
started on my homework
:D
did differentiation
familiarize myself with it already
so shiok
after that
took a break
went dessert-ing with sengui
he's a troubled guy
ohwell
i did worteva i can to help ald
now its just the results
haha
dont think so much!
home!
did my chem
a few qn left undone
did my 1200 words ESSAY ok
sucha big deal!
:DDD
did revision for chinese test tml!
so shioookkk
i'm dumb
brought back bio text
BUT
i didnt even touch it during the weekend
oh well
i'm busy
HOHO
ended my day
with an entry in the journal
:D
thank God

SENGUI arhs
its not the end of the world
stop being a worry wart
more wrinkles only!
everything will be fine
its all about making the right choice
consult yr mommy also!
you might never noe if she could help
no harm trying too!
so stop being an idiot
:DDD
BIG SMILE ok?
happy prata-ing
update me abt the fantastic "show"
you're abt to watch
BLAHHHH

2006-02-11T12:15:00.000+08:00

O levl results ytd
so emotional!
it was either
tears of joy
or
tears of happiness
but worteva it is
wort is done is done
cannot be undone
those who's happy now
i feel happy for you
those who's results are not satisfactory
no point crying over spilt milk ya?
:D
oh well
i'm now slapped awake!
i've to buck up!
my chemistry!
my combine humans!
though they're all satisfactory
BUT
it will be 100000 better now!
hohoho
from b4 to a1 ok?
shiok

woke up 8 in the morning
for tuition!
so crap right?
caus ei got band later
which is equal ____
did differentiation
crap
all the numbers and formulas in my mind
dare not do anything
scared all will lost from my mind
>.<
so much tuition homework too
oh well
life of a teen
so crap
:D

2006-02-09T21:11:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LALU!

oh well
life's screwed
really screwed
to jh and hs
plsplsplsplspls
thousand and one million pls
just hang on now at his point of time can?
just one more month
you cant just wash yr hands off everything
and dump me everything to me
making me shoulder everything
i'm like u too
i'm not perfect so pls

drama's for assembly today
kept me laughing all the way
lalu's a proud harry
haha
oh well
i've spent too much this month
on so much stuff
btr just keep my hands to myself
and shut up!
:D
and just mug
maybe if everyone in the world
start appreciating wort ppl has done for you
everything would be much btr much peaceful
if you can just appreciate
someone helping you be it studies or errands
someone who coaches you w/o getting paid
someone who's trying her/his best to help you in wortever way they can
someone who might be trying to cheer you up
someone who just smiled at you
if only everyone could learn to appreciate
be grateful or thankful
doesnt it irks you
when you're trying to help someone
or help out or cheer someone
when like CRAP
the person dont even do sth to reply you
if only if only
oh well
off to mug

pss
my dad just quarrelled with my sister
arguement got heated!
and boom
they almost cat fight
my sister really need anger management
she just cant control when
she's fustrated she just screams
oh well

2006-02-08T19:46:00.000+08:00

oh well
my com's fixed
it just crashed a few days ago
my daddy got it fixed
marvellous!
:D
feels good to be back!

life's still going on
just that
recently somehow
i'm feelnig a little nasty
just irritating the whole world
thought alot today
just finally dawned to me
why i'm always struggling in life
why i missed out so much life
why i'm sorta different from my friends
it was just this silly decision i made
in the beginning of the school
now i regret it
and i have to stay with it til i leave school
i've missed out so much in life
maybe wort u call
teen hood
kinda thing
right now
i can only hang on
no more motivation
no more determination
i feel like a dead person walking on the street
just hoping that the days would past faster
dont feel like studying
dont feel like shopping
dont feel like staying at home
dont feel like going out
its just so contradicting
pouncing on every free time i got
struggling to get work done
despite late nights on the com
i serioudly think
this isnt wort a teen life shd be
i wan to rebellious sometimes
haha
no balls
i just wanna hurry end this shit
and get out of sch
best i dont even wanna go to sch

it's the last year
i'll just make every little thing i do
satisfactory
be it presents
work
attitude
oh well
i'm still a teen
dont expect too much from me
i cant take it sometimes
i'm a human too

raos
i need a way to let out everything
its starting to explode
i think i'll get into trouble soon

2006-02-05T12:49:00.000+08:00

just got back from the docs
my throat was a killer this morning
crap
the doc gave me like one week mc from cca
oh well
will still go for band
but i prolly wont be able to play
my dad was like why the hell
you still need to go for band
i wan you to come home early
and blahblahblah crap

i love cindy <3

look at sen gui cock face! shiok?

i love you alot so please dont zibi yrself!
dont anti social too long
you might just miss me alot!
>.<

one last pic lar!

2006-02-05T00:31:00.000+08:00

joined lalu and hair at bugis
feel so ZZZZ
rushed home
dad got pissed with me
for i dont noe wort reason
then i felt rotten all the way
bused home
napped
then go for buffet
nth much
just gambled
not bad
for a first timer
i won quite a bit
like $22?
;D
oh well
all went to my dad
i wanna learn mahjong
some kind soul
just teach me!
haiya
got rather pissed
somewhere
haha
so rotten
i dont noe wort's wrong with me!
RAOOSS

neos that day with sengui
oh well

me and my sister!

2006-02-04T10:51:00.000+08:00

i'm bored
how's the new layout!
i kinda like it
hoho
xt claims
its 10x btr then the previous one
oh well
i feel fucking rotten
my buyer cannot meet me today
and i'm actually racking my brains
wort to wear later
so rotten
i feel rotten all around
up and down
throat's still sore
i'm not aching much ald
RAOS!
i just feel r o t t e n
nevertheless
i still love cindy alot
:D

just those crazy times!

2006-02-03T21:02:00.000+08:00

i feel bitchy
come on
it just piss me off
when some ppl
just act like nothing happened
when something did happen
and pretend like everything's fine
you'll never know
how the person feel
maybe she doesnt regard you as her fren at all

raos
dont know wort i talking
i just feel so uncomfortable
pain everywhere
bones are aching
oh well
so busy during the weekends
my life feels lousy now
like no aim!
and i'm just wishing days will pass faster
i wanna vent my anger and fustrations
on splurging!
RAO
i'm so pissed
with i dont noe wort
i feel fucking bitchy now!
any kind soul can go with me to town tml
to pass my buyer the tube dress?
msg me online
thanks! :DDD
i'll love you
i'll treat you to a bun from crytal jade
(:
i noe i'm nice!
changing blogskin
i know the current one sucks
haha

2006-02-03T13:45:00.000+08:00

sick
my throat's sore
>.<
oh well
got blocked nose now
the weather's stupid
my seat in class is near the window
so the wind was blowing and blowing
so cold lar
then on the way home
it was the blazing sun
killing me
i'm so happy with my bio test!
:D
got motivation to study ald
going to nap now!

2006-02-02T17:43:00.000+08:00

guess who's that idiot with the pretty bag!
:D

he's really a big dumb ass!
hoho

2006-02-02T17:35:00.000+08:00

xueting didnt come to school today
i tried my best to listen
in mrs sim class
since she gave me pretty high marks for my test
i'll be nice
and yeah
i only laid my head down for the first 10 min
when she talked about mr tan's email
lame
then i listened the whole lesson
pretty ok
i'm satisfied with my s.s test too
other than kinematics
only test i feel pretty ok
binomial test was shit
one word SHIT
utterly disheartened
no motivation to work harder already
fuck
chem test
HAH
11 marks
just passed
oh well
after sch
went to meet suanmei
for lunch
suppose to go t the docs with him
but haiya
he's cocked up
:D
hohoho
then go eat
he's dumb ok
going to go visiting and eat
still ask me out for lunch
dumb stupid idiot!
haha
anyway
treat him eat popiah
cindy, we still owe them alot $$$
dinner ytd was 25 bucks!
>.<
taxi fare like 11 bucks!
36 - 16 - 1= 19 bucks
still owe them so much
suanmei insist i treat him HD
so shit
single scoop still not enough!
wth
tuition-ed
so drowsy
hardly can keep my eyes open
cannot think also
huh
i so cham
i'm in a very big mess
oh well
band tml
HAH
another day of
oh well
i'm hanging in there
my pretty friday
teehee
see can stay over at cindy hse
cindy! msg me when u see this
:Dsaturday
kbox with cindy in the morning
then off to some shit buffet
which is out to make me fat
OHWELL!
after all these
i better get serious
and get down to work

wish me luck
>.<

2006-02-01T21:12:00.000+08:00

school-ed today
tiresome
feel so dreary
still in my cny mood
and
yeah
so fuck
needa go to school
oh well
cant concentrate either!
pathetic

p.e-ed!
so TIRING!
played soccer under the sun for 45 min
like shit!
plain shit
its not MY PASSION lars
hors?
suan mei?
HAHA
so tiring
history just added more
to my boredom
but cindy's there to crap with me
planning to go high ourselves this saturday
:D
shiok!
suddenly feel gloomy
just cant laugh or smile
RAOS!
irritating
i wanna HIGH!
zi high at home
goodidea
:DDD
sectionals
dont need say
just make me feel worse all the time
at my wits end
really dont noe wort to do
tues got juniors
wed sectionals
thursday got tuition
haha
i'm such a busy person
crap
after that
go bus stop wait for cindy
walked all the way there
so tiring can
senmuae wake up ald
jiu find me
waited and waited
for cindy
finally came
went to the market
weared out ald
chan meng came
dinner was really cool
suppose to treat the boys
cause they paid like 20 over dollars
for taxi fare
just to send us home
we were being nice
but they rejected our offer
refuse to let us pay
feel like idiot
kept pushing the money to them
so irritating
DIE ALSO DONT WAN TAKE
GIVE YOU MONEY ALSO DONT WAN TAKE!
like small kids
running around
so lame
then we threw it into the ba gua box
threw it to them and run away
pei cindy walk a little
home
drained
finished my bio ntoes
i did something
dont feel so useless le
:D
yeah!
night!

2006-01-31T21:56:00.000+08:00

just two of my picture lars
dont complain!
((:

invisible!
nth to do in the morning while waiting for them
haha

2006-01-31T21:44:00.000+08:00

at j8!

in ktv

in sengui's mommy car
we were squahsed lars
squeeze at the back with chanmeng and another guy
they tow occupy 2/3 of the bac seat
poor me and cindy have squeeze
>.<

cindy's tongue which cant be seen and chan meng!

2006-01-31T21:33:00.000+08:00

cindy sen gui chanmeng came
my dear cindy treated me like her maid
still need cut ba gua for her!
>.<
they played cards and stuff
then went over to sengui house
eat steamboat
not hungry one
they played mahjong
and i like bai chi
dont noe how to play
after that
sengui mommy gave us a lift
to orchard patryworld
got some unknown ppl there
feel so weird
didnt wan to high liao
then feel rotten all the wya
oh well
found some stuff to entertain myself
>.<
hoho
cant jump on sofas too
the room quite small
then after ktc
go cineleisure
they played pool
while me and cindy sat there and rot away
went on to food junction
dined
cab home
now rushing chi hw
so shit
i haven do ahlai's hw too!
>.<
oh well

2006-01-30T23:12:00.000+08:00

dayone!

HEEELLLOOO

me and sister

she just willingly crap with me

BITE BABIES!

day two

my sister dressed like a china woman

haha
pls hate me
(:

ohhh senguuaaii

2006-01-30T22:52:00.000+08:00

sunday
church-ed
then visiting
more houses to visit this year
so many cousins get married
shiok
more couples = more hong baos
cool
i look really fat in my outfit
so sad
>.<
my cousins were like
haiyo u fei le arhs?
so sad
and every year
more and more ppl will comment
i look like my sister
which is total shit!
super tired
kept dozing off
my father sister and i
can just sit on the sofa
and doze off
haha
met up with cindy at night
hung around at j8
did thousands of retarded stuff
videos and pics
sen gui and neighbour came
we sat around
got chased my security guard
then think sengui got pissed with us of sth?
dont noe
caught the midnight show
for i not stupid
the show's fine
didnt really pay attention
cause i sat at the 3rd row
so cock
>.<
cab home with sen gui
so tired
RAOS!
cam whored the whole day
self obesess!
:DDD
love it
my cousin even brought portable photo printer
then kept taking pic and print
so shiok

today
woke up at 11 today!
so shiok
visitng again
so lame
only go 2 houses
then met up with sen gui
go cindy hse!
lion dance
so noisy!
haha
dont fancy lion dances
boring and irritating
anyway
they had chocolate fountain LARS!
so shiok
didnt eat much
SOOOO MANY PPL
like wort liddat
ate
and mess up her room
me and cindy were just nuts
ask sengui!
haha
he and his JEWS!
:D
*winks at cindy
bus-ed home with sengui
he kept pushing my head lars
so crap!
oh well
he's mad!
home

tml going kbox
so shiok!
raos
enjoy myself before sch reopens
so fuck
i'm stress
haha

2006-01-29T00:15:00.000+08:00

drop outs

krissy the policewoman

we jump for joy for LIFE

cindy loves me

lalu's eyes look exceptionally big

NEOS

me and lalu were carrying big bags of ba gua home!
so tired!
>.<

2006-01-29T00:10:00.000+08:00

packed my room!
so clean now
until not like my room
went out with sen gui today
pei him shopped
so last min
met up so early some more
11 plus
lunched at ajisen
treat!
woohoo
then walked around
that asshole is sooo fussy
cant stand him
my legs rotted
quickly grabbed earrings
cause by 3pm
most of the shops were closing
so weird
went home like 5 plus
feels weird to go home early
bus-ed home
stupid sen gui
made me wait uber long for 132
when 2 162 buses passed us
(seperate bus stops)
oh well
home
tuan yuan fan
weird feeling again
whole family sit down and eat
once a year thing man
haha
didnt eat much
oh well

2006-01-28T00:58:00.000+08:00

cny celebrations!
joe and xt nvr come
too bad
>.<
cam whored the moment i saw cindy
HAHA
oh well that woman loves her pretty face alot huh
we did all the weird stuff
cause we were damn bored
we had fun anyway!
the performance was great
eloys, with the singapore team gymnast[?] and saxies!
entertained for first few min
den we started to wander off
yeah
so bored
took many videos!
back to class for lessons
weirdest and lousiest idea
BANDED after that
this is even more weird!
oh well
wort to do
mood became really lousy
for some reason
cant concentrate at all
dont noe wort i thinking
rushed off to meet xt and rest
no manicure shop was available so shit!
hereen
met lalu
neos!
ages since we took neos
so fun!
my heels killed me
so i got flip flops
off to chinatown
collect bagua at sengui's ba gua shop!
no he works there only
HAHA!
so find lalu's mother
walked around while waiting
supper at some cafe
we were crapping
oh well
went back to the bagua shop
to return money
then home
soooo tired
until cannot even smile
feel go grumpy
RAOS!
paint my nails myself
quite pretty!
uber satisfied!
((:

2006-01-25T21:22:00.000+08:00

i'm a piece of pathetic shit!
>.<
more pics at xueting blog!

2006-01-25T21:03:00.000+08:00

feel so lousy today
after my chem tset
so disappointed with myself
i cant do a single qn
couldnt even rmb the mass composition formula
mental block
cant think at all during the whole test
feel so fupset
adding to my fustrations
my sec2s are not working hard
its making my annoyed
i was super grumpy the whole sectional
even jian hua didnt make a noise
my face must have been really lousy
screamed at the sec2s
feel bad
i'm not letting of the steam
but they're just going over the limit
despite the umpteenth times i reminded them
to learn their notes before coming
they still give me their rubbish
oh well!
i'm not studying much for my binomal test tml too
feel so weird
there's a test and i'm online
i feel like slapping myself awake!
i'm fupset with myself
pms!
RAOS!
on top of that
i'm sway today!
1) got locked out of my house
forgot to bring keys
and my sister left for tuition 1/2 hour ago
went to get dinner
and dine at the stairs
not the first time anyway!
>.<
2) i bought 9048 for 4d, but 9848 came out 2nd prize
sucks, $$$ fly away!
3) i'm busy today, lalu's free. i'm free tml, lalu's busy!
haha, so fun
4)i made my good fren pissed
5)on top of everything, my daddy scolded me a few days ago
for splurging toooo much
i'm sooo guilty!
>.<
RAOOOSSS

suddenly, feelings just came back

2006-01-22T21:54:00.000+08:00

flag day on sat
was totally retarded!
we wasted our time ok!
they wanted us to fill 1/2 the tin
like HELLO!
no one in singapore will donate lar!
they obviously noe the NKF thing
and they still make us to bg on the street
like beggars and get rejected by ppl
again and again and again
and orchard had like 1000000 ppl doing the same thing
HELLO!
donate wort donate wort?
i refuse to go for the next cip man!
if they wan us to do
community programmes!
i rather go AWWA home
den beg on the street and waste my time
standing under the hot sun
anyway
me lalu and joce were not bothered
we were laming away
we walked around orchard with yy and cindy
allt eh shops were clsoed
lalu didnt noe we were taking pic
so wort she's doing is unintentional!
haha

WOOPS! unitentionally deleted the last too! GO TO SCH ALRDY! CYA!
missANG :DDD

2006-01-19T17:35:00.000+08:00

high-ed in school
took videos of us doing stupid stuff
wait til xueting uploads it
will decide whether to share with everyone
after sch
chionged home!
bacon ba kua!
:DDD
mugging!
done with bio left with kinematics!
going to do like shit
have to pass!
>.<

i'm terribly disgusted with this's sec one
BOYS!
i was in the bus
and this stupid fat boy just shoved
and push his way to the front
i growled
and he say
"urgh wort urgh"
super rude!
then i said
faster get out!
cause i was alighting at the same stop
den he started mumbling
raos
dont care
let me see him again
i make surei'll slap him til he cry!
:DDD
next incident in the lift
the two horrible aunties!
neighbour A said hi
so i said HI
neighbour B asked in hokkien
i'm who's child
neighbour told her
naighbour B replis in hokkien
orhh, ta bai kao bei kao bu ehh
OHHH MMMYYY GOOODDDNNNEESSS
that stupid dumb ignorant old AHMA
thinks i dont understand hokkien??
fuck lars!
but its true
my parents bicker and the make hell lot of noise
BUT
that old stupid auntie
just said it right in my face
feel like slapping her face
got a strong urge to ask her
wo de jia you mei ci kao bei kao bu mehh
but before i could say anything
she went ou of the lift
oh well
God pls bless me!
>.<
did i mention?
neighbour A super loves to gossip
she tells my mother everything
if she sees me with any guy
and now wort happen to her
she lost her teeth!
i'm serious
her lips were caved in
prolly nvr wear dentures!
or her two front teeth or all the teeth
just dropped!
i guess its retribution
for gossiping too much

2006-01-17T16:24:00.000+08:00

wort happens to you when yr dentist has long sightedness?

you end up having magnified mouth!
thats what happen to our silly xueting
her braces were tooo fine!

talking about dentist
i visited the dentist today
she kept plucking sth btwn my teeth!
horrible experience
it was pain
she kept saying
"relax yr lips i cant see yr teeth"
and she started mumbling
i couldnt hear her of course
she was behind the mask!

now
i got a pretty fren who's a family of
CELIA and MIKE from monster inc

really
i'm not bluffing!
but she's awfully sweet
right?

i told you!
:DDD
oh well
let's get retarded!
jocelyn was shaking her butt the whole day
whole time!
and she claims she's tired
maybe she's praticing belly dancing right now at home!
(:
well
mrs lai's pmsing these few days
i didnt wan to be the vice chair
cause obviously i cant do a good job
and i have band commitments!
so yeah
she gave me that look as if i was a slacker
but HELLO!
i wasnt willing to be the vice chair in the pirst place
shoot her!
:D
she also made us do this!

tucked in all the way
til we see the brim of our skirt
and we had to raise our hands
the parts of the blouse
that came out
was all we were allowed
to tuck out
:D
nice?
and we had to wear our skirts high!
she scolded jia yu for wearing her skirt as hipster
joce finds her lessons THRILLING
cause she can shake her butt!
(:
but i find it worst than slping with bangalas
to be in her class for eng too
NO
maybe not so bad
HAHA
:D
OFF TOOO MUGGG
got 3 chap to study for bio!
sucks!
and kinematics
i failed the quiz badly
binomial is fine!
i'm catching up
thats good thats good

2006-01-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

church
class starts today!
oh boy!
great eeling
to get everyone back together!
:D
aspire to be a shaonainai!
lunch at soup restaurant
i think i'm getting weirder!
i was freaking hungry!
but i couldnt finish a small bowl of steamed rice
which i could easily finish
last time even i was full
oh well
fucking full!
went shopping
far east!
$$$
my daddy gave me money lors!
so shiok!
bu she de spend
i'm getting tops like
every other days!
and i got no bottoms
no heels!
anyway
there're NO nice heels
so sad!
>.<
my god ma got her LV bag for 910 bucks
we were walking on the streets
seeing someone selling
FAKE LV BAGS
for 20 bucks
i bet she felt like a fool!
oh well
she's loaded!
:D
i'm a happy woman!
cause i got pretty tees!
and my ambercrombie shorts are coming soon!
(:
i just need a pretty heel to complete my life!
anyway
i havent decided wort to wear for CNY
cause i got like
5 brand new tops NOT worn yet!
haha
horrible terrible!
oh well
my sister's happy too!
she shopped!

i'm flabberghasted!
RAAOOSS!
actually so excited
tml going to carry my new bag
then end up
someone in singapore
actually carries the same bag as me!
huh
i feel so ARGH
i noe lars
i'm petty and stuff and shit
but HUH
buy online
still got ppl same as me!
so BU KE SI YI!
raos
nvm
i still love my bag!
another 3 shopping days
for me to get my heels
NO WORRIES!
town not as crowded as ytd
surprising!
lesser ABNN too

2006-01-14T21:34:00.000+08:00

flag day!
ultra boring!
i'm wee happy!
i sold my boho skirt!
i'm 12 bucks richer!
haha
no diff!
went down to chinatown
i think half the world's population is out today!
cause from someset to chinatown!
every stop
have so many ppl!
got squashed!
so crowded
many ABNN too!
dropped by sen gui's place
cm looked really depress
oh well
only she noes wort's wrong lar hors!
then huai sian and i walked around
ate at some act high class place!
read magazines and high tea-ed!

:D
haha
to town!
far east
pass the girl the skirt
walked around
then returned the tins!
meet sen gui
go get my bag from the guy
go all the way to dover!
in case u dont noe where it is
it is at SINGAPORE POLY
near ACJC!
madness!
half dead
then had to cab to that guy's hse
got my bag!
home!
singapore suddenly seem so big!
run to so many places today
anyway!
i'm getting my ambercrombie shorts!
like finally!
million happy!

and my puma bag!

my daddy decided to be funny!
he took my bag and wanted to act funny!

yeah!
then i'm left with footwear for new year!
shopping with lalu soon!
i'm a happy woman!

2006-01-12T18:02:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!
i'm selling some o my stuff
my wardrobes bursting from my sprees
>.<
HERE
oh well
school's perfect
i've been learning new stuff
i'm revising mugging and shit!
most importantly!
life's great!
:D

2006-01-10T19:10:00.000+08:00

spacious powder room!
i wan my dressing room to be this big when i grow up!

future TAITAI!

in action!

love us

view from the cafe

THE INCIDENT

we were SHOCK!

then slowly get happy!

bu we were so guilty lars!

anyway we're repentant! :D

LOVE US!

2006-01-10T18:55:00.000+08:00

brrrrr
its freezing cold
and guess wort i did?
i went swimming for nuts!
HAHA
only eloys and me were crazy enough
to do it!
:DD
woke up at 8plus
format my com
its lagging like shit
then went out
eloys's mommy fetched us to
SINGAPORE ISLAND COUNTRY CLUB
shiok
swam
like 3 laps?
then it started to drizzle
guess it was time t go
went off
the toilets are so cool!
but no AN QUAN GAN
cause the main door to the toilets was automatic
and the doors for the cubicle
were just normal translucent glass doors
with NO lock
i got a shock
HAHA
but we're all girls
:DDD
steam room
i cant stay in there for more than 5 min man
burning hot!
>.<
bath!
the soap shampoo dispenser was cool!
i noe i'm so sua gu but so cool!
how wish i can just slp in the toilet!
i dont mind
really
they have this small bench in the cubicle too
extremely spacious!
i wanna stay there forever!
but too bad
went to the powder room
MADNESS!
cam whored!
i mean
it was just mirrors mirrors and mirrors
they had like lotion, hair mousse[?], gel for us to us
cool huh!
had this really cool basin too!
had hair dryer with comb provided!
they sterilise the comb too!
SUPERB SERVICE!
changed
played around
and off to the cafe!
ate toast
yummy!
did i mention
they had weighing machines in the toilets too
>.<
had hard time hailing taxi!
the receptionist booked a cab for us
it was just a SHAO NAI NAI day!
:DD
met jaslyn and glenn
went to bugis
shopped!
got 2 tops!
i just cant stop buying
i feel extremely guilty over sth!
elyos and i are just sooo ______
we're repentant ok!
home!
mopped the floor
my mother said it's exercising!
she just wanna make use of me lars!
>.<
upload pics soon

2006-01-10T09:54:00.000+08:00

monday blues ytd!
haha
oh well
band
had sectionals first
and all of the sudden han xuan cried
and yeah
dont noe wort happen to him
i think because me and jian hua keep ka jiao him
>.<
but i treat him drink milo with cheryl money!
haha
SORRY!
return u on wed!
after band
go s11 to eat with sen gui
developed the pics
so long lors
my mother nagged when i came home!
>.<
oh well
haiya
i feel so rotten
but THANK YOU SEN GUI
for that cap!
and the dinner!
thanks loads!
woohoo
will get yr christmas cum new year cum birthday cum valentine cum deepavali present soon!

2006-01-08T19:18:00.000+08:00

got bored waiting for the whole world

i lost the guess number game
had to pose
>.<

in the bus
sen gui just CANT stop taking pic

lovely chocolates!

2006-01-08T18:58:00.000+08:00

church
went to j8 after that
hung around
til my sister had to go
went down to somerset
to meet the person to collect sengui's bag
at first was 2pm
she changed to 3pm
fine
since sen gui also couldnt make it at 2pm
then he reached
we waited and waited
3.3
ask her
she say she on PIE coming down from tampiness
nvm
we dont wanna so bai chi wait at the station
so we walked around
then we went to hereen
got a mag with loads of goodies
rock
then she ask us meet her at far east
crazy
too far
so we go tangs meet her
we walk and wait
walk and wait
she still haven come
QI SI WO!
but haiya
cause raining
and she was coming down
in motorbike
so i was fine with it
but sen gui was angry lars
partially he's prejudice against you noe
DOGS
hahaha
went to topman!
the polo tee so different from the web
disappointing
then go far east
find lalu's shotrs
and bus-ed home
chatted!

2006-01-07T21:46:00.000+08:00

ice kacang!

i conquered the web!

YEAH! its S! SLIM SHIT!

OH NOOOO! i dont wan i dont wan!

sen gui wants to live in here!
he thinks its cool

he lost to me in guessing number thing
and he had to sit on the merry go round!
so cool

love ourselves!
some one just buy me that cap will you!
i've been eyeing on it for sucha long time!
>.<

fruits for life

i wanna be skinny!

passed by this place

we were running too fast! HOHO

we reached home, dead beat!

2006-01-07T21:25:00.000+08:00

tuition in the morning
my teacher so cool one!
do manicure
wear huey huey capris
and she took cab down from east coast
from another student's place!
rich lars!
fine
she's good
taught me bionomal[?]
in like 5 min?
when i dont understand a shit
haha
rushed out to meet sengui to jog
ohwell
we wanted to keep ourselves fit
but the weather didnt let us
cause we ran halfway
it started to rain so we had to stop
cam whore!

camera shy! so act

there he goes! >.<

we look retarded, the rain's getting into our brains!

awwwww, i'm so lonely

i've got nobody, on my own!

cindy pass by us
so she gave us a lift
the nearest hawker center
they were on their way to eat there
ate ice kacang
its a sin i noe
cindy went off
THANK YOU BABY!
then i conquered the spiderweb!
(:
like real
it was slippery and all
so dare not
walk and chatted!
sengui's a poor thing
he got DUA-ed
so sad
HOHO
he kept saying he's handsome and all
dont know why
he love to delude himself
reached thomson plaza
took pictures!
went to ntuc
fool around
kids are really irritating
looked at cameras
all so ex!
went to food court
ate fruits!
:D
wort a healthy lifestyle!
went off
walked back!
started to turn dark
many bangalas start to come out
oh well
we can hardly see them at night
but they just kinda scare me
>.<
so tired
my legs ache like hell
we got lost some how
then got back on track again
home!

2006-01-06T20:57:00.000+08:00

i end up sitting with hui jie!
we were rushing through the vocab book
since it was mrs anand's book
and we didnt wan to hold on to it
at all
i'm with lalu during chi class
we dont talk alot suddenly
haha
weird
OHWELL!
i got ton's of hw for the weekend
got tuition tml!
which is cool
cause i've missed out lessons
and i cant catch up
have to study like
bio chem and emaths
this weekend
really really busy!
cant shop
oh well
band-ed after school
the syf piece is crazy
i thank God i'll be gone by then
going to make the concert at esplanade wonderful
19 MARCH 2006
esplanade hall
amkss + wat suthi band
OH PLS DO COME DOWN AND SUPPORT US!
its really really cool
you can act high class
and all!
really a concert not to be missed
esp
if you noe me!
HAHA
but how cheap can the tickets go too
so dont expect like 10 bucks
if u ever wan to enter esplande
HAHA
i pay at least 15 bucks for a tokyo kosei concert okay!
dont complain!
went to coid deck with eloys after that
to chat with her!
she's a really nice girl!
she just sat there and hear
me rattle on about my life!
haha
no wonder she attracts so many men!
:D

i'll love my life
i promise :D

2006-01-04T21:11:00.000+08:00

we sorted it out
we're frens now
realise stuff in her point of view
well
maybe i really take things too hard
til my frens cant take it too
HOHO
i'm sorry
it has been hard on you
haha
better than nothing
best friends' just a word
most important thing
is that we can play and have fun together
naturally
it doesnt matter
if we're called frens or enemies

looking forward t a better day tml of course
and no i dread friday
its eng lessons

lunch with cindy and rest
i ate alot!
dessert-ing with sen gui just now
didnt care if i would gai weight
i jsut wanted to vent my fustrations
chat alot!
felt better
he felt better too
we're happy ppl
cause WE'RE TALL
so we KAN DE KAI
:D

2006-01-04T17:19:00.000+08:00

i'm awfully upset

i realise i'm sitting alone in english class
there are so much stuff i regret doing
haha

2006-01-03T18:35:00.000+08:00

ytd
went town with cindy
search for her bag and shoe
she's really a fussy person!
go around
up down
down up
and finally got her shoe
her bag
HAHA
use plastic bag lars!
meet lizi to get my books
then go northpoint
with hairy to get her stationery

first day of school
i skip half the day of lessons
for sec one orientation
i got no idea worts going on in class
didnt talk to her the whole day
haha
broke record
this sucks
nvr see lalu
nvr talk to sheryl
oh well
life's in a mess huh

2006-01-02T21:45:00.000+08:00

dream of money

group photos!

2006-01-02T21:26:00.000+08:00

ktv room! (: big and comfy

qiang jing tou!

wes look like he's groping santa's chest

DO YOU LOVE SEN GUI? HAHA

wan toilets? call the number!

childish!

act cute lars!

2006-01-02T21:01:00.000+08:00

besties!

sen gui acting cute again

finished!

see the balls?

YUMMY! cup noodles!

big star!

besties!

2006-01-01T21:18:00.000+08:00

AND AND AND!
we saw many DOGS
those DOGS were super ewwww
sen gui hates DOGS the most
scary
but i agree
DOGS aint friendly
they're so rowdy so wild
we all dont really like them

2006-01-01T20:44:00.000+08:00

only half of our cam whoring session
i cant recieve pic from cindy!
shucks
oh well

SEN GUI super loves himself
so i didnt wan to let him zi lian
so i keep zi high!
haha

2006-01-01T19:02:00.000+08:00

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!

1) to love God even more
2) to limit my computer usage
3) to get into JC nearest to my house
4) quarrell less with my sister
5) not to grumble at every little thing
6) to treat everyone the wya i want them to treat me
7) to give and do not expect rewards
8) to be severely underweight
9) to keep a healthy lifestyle
10) EXERCISE!

2006-01-01T17:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2OO6!

a new year
a new beginning!
thrashing fun ytd!
but duper tired too!
oh well
at least
we enjoyed the last day of the year
despite all the unhappy stuff recently

cindy was late!
so by the time we went down
to town to meet
sen gui and wesley
its was 5.30!
haha
went down to somerset
for dont know wort reason
took the train
to marina bay!
cause we thought the celebration was there
end up
the lady told us
at city hall
so we went city hall
walked all the way
to marina square
we had no idea
where the hell
was the celebration taking place
went to marina square
walked around
dropped by jolyn's work place
sen gui was acting retarded
oh no
he's retarded all the time
:D
we decided to go over to esplanade
wesley and i walked the safe way
while
sen gui ad cindy decided to risk their lives
running across the road
we took pictures
then we got hooked on
esp sen gui
HAHA!
with his father's laopok camera!
it was quite crowded there
avoided bangalas
they just scare me
we started to feel tired
went into esplanade to rest
everyone was sitting around
on the floor
so we did the same at a corner
sen gui and wesley were hungry
so they went to 7-11
to get cup noodles for us
we sat til
our butt cramped
legs mcramped
hand cramped
head cramped
and at last they came back
super long!
but very shiok
you imagine!
we were cold and hungry
sitting on the hard floor
a cup of piping hot noodles
was just right!
ate
avoided the security guard too
then the cam whoring session came
we took many pic
of all combinations!
haha
cindy and me
cindy and sen gui
cindy and wesley
me and wesley
me and sen gui
and all of us
we kept asking the coupl who sat in front of us
to help us take a pic
the girlfren was pretty pissed!
opps
after that
they made me threw the rubbish lar!
plain toture
took pic with the art pieces there
went out again
this time
the whole street was packed!
had to squeeze our way around
decided to write our wishes and hang it up too
since it was free
and there were many poles to hang on
me and cindy
were greedy
we wrote our wishes on 3 card
back and front!
the photographer made us take pic with our wishes
and my face was really retarded
when i saw the pic he took
oh shucks
hung our wishes!
squeezed our way around to find sengui's friends
we had to hold each other really tightly
cause everyone was pushing roughly around
found them
they were beside the toilets!
the temporary ones
so funny
then we started taking pic with the toilets!
den squeezed our way to the screen
this time worst!
we could hardly walk!
everyone PUSH lar!
wesley guided us through
cindy was pretty much shackened[?]
we were squeezing each other's hand!
:DD
you noe why huh?
my foot got stepped on million times
heard the snow spray cans shaking
i was shaking too
i was afraid someone would just attack me
luckily we had guys around
we could just hide behind them!
haha
rock
fireworks
SUPER DUPER PRETTY!
seldom get to see!
haha
had to hold sen gui's phone for the whole time
took pictures
and ZI HIGH!
got out
wanted to rush for the last train
to go orchard
end up
city link everything all close
fuck lars
we walk one whole big round like idiots!
me and cindy already buatahan
by the time we reached city hall station
we missed the last train for like half hr??
met wesley and sen gui frens
sat at the pavement like idiots
THEN
the worst thing come
they made us walked all the way
from city hall to orchard
sen gui's an idiot!
he thinks i'm lousy
i cant do it!
but i walked all the way w/o grumbling!
saw alot of drunk ppl
vomiting
shouting
so cool
cindy already not high
so sian
just act blind
act drunk
allt he way
entertain myself
and cindy was just plain sian
reached orchard
went to party world
wanted to get a room
and just sleep in there
188 bucks!
haha
for 12 ppl
wtf
6 of us reached there first
so waited waited
so freaking cold!
luckily i wore my cropped jacket!
cindy took it anyway
i'm so nice to you my darling!
:DDD
sang sang sang
couldnt slp
high abit ald
the guys were great singers
haha!
i mean 'great'
sang til about 6am
got out
went to the station
waited for train
took a grp pic
this realy comical guy help us take pic
he said ort
hurry, squeeze
i take picture need FEEL
haha
crap
train
home!
reach home about 7am
slept
woke up at 11
got ready
dressed up and stuff
then meet my daddy
go wedding lunch
>.<
the bride's my cousin
she's an airstewardess!
(:
many coolness!
cause there were amny pretty ladies there!
:D
ate
too tired to go far east
which was just beside
the hotel we were lunching in
home!
going to slp ald!
HEEEE
upload pic when cindy comes online!

2005-12-31T00:26:00.000+08:00

life's amazing aint it?
we have different emotions
love
hate
anger
jealousy
happy
sad
depressed
who likes the feeling to hate?
does anyone like to hate someone
by hating that perons
or dislike that person
make you feel happy?
if you are
i'm not talking to you
same as everyone
i dont like the feeling to dislike
to hate anyone
(hate would be too strong to use)
so you think i enjoy feeling upset and angry
at that person?
maybe its just
she dont treat you this way
that's way you'll dont feel this way
i guess
and i think
you WILL never feel this way
but
i never like to treat her this way
i just dont noe how to talk to her
dont noe how to tell her
dont ask me to go tell her how i feel
cause i cant open my mouth
and i dont thinks he will understand
if she could understand
things wont turn out like this in the first place
i dont noe how you interpret this
you think its entirely my fault?
its my fault
that i initiate every conversation
and in the end
it always dont work out?
haha
this is interesting

my mother just repeated the same old stuff to me
this time
i suppose she trying to push
her responsibility as a mother
to me
to teach my sister
how to be a better person
and she claims she's busy doing chores
sometimes
this role as a mother
cant be easily replaced
to my sister
oh well
just before the new year
i got so much problems
headache headache

2005-12-29T15:54:00.001+08:00

i sort it out last night
i must lose weight by this week!
so i went to research
on a fruits and vege diet!
strictly no carbo!
dont worry
i wont faint cause
i got too much energy in me
no actually
FATS in me
:D
went to school for sectionals
last about 3 hours
we're working hard enough
for the mentoring shit tml
and the sec one orientation
sec ones dont appreciate such stuff
no point putting up sucha nice performance
with the audience sleeping
oh well
alight a stop before my bus stop
walked home
stopped at 9th floor
walked all the way up to 13th floor
i had to walk an extra 2000 steps
than normal
so i walking all around today
i even helped to shift the chairs
usually i'll be lazy too
SEE
i'm trying hard
and i will see results!
i've resist pretty much temptation
and i will continue to do so!
ate pear and apple for lunch
thats enough
but
i'm feeling hungry after a while
nvm
i got kiwi and jackfruit
in my fridge
all piled and ready for my diet!
:DDD
going to go for a haircut
then i'll be all ready for the new year!
(:
and
my mom promised if
the osim slimming belt work
she would buy it for me
YAY!
:D
i'll force myself to do situpd
though i hate it alot
in the new year
i'll jog every sunday
i promise!
a way to release stress
HOHOHO
but after a month
i bet i'll stop all this shit
HAHA!

i've thought of my new year resolutions!
will post it up
some other times!
when i've finalised
the details
HOHO
i'm a piece of cock shit

and how's my new layout?
feel welcomed???
HAHA!
i spent the whole afternoon doing it
better appreciate
cause i'm making an effort
to let you enjoy!

took out my tag board
no one tags anyway

2005-12-29T15:54:00.000+08:00

i sort it out last night
i must lose weight by this week!
so i went to research
on a fruits and vege diet!
strictly no carbo!
dont worry
i wont faint cause
i got too must energy in me
:D
went to school for sectionals
last about 3 hours
we're working hard enough
for the mentoring shit tml
and the sec one orientation
sec ones dont appreciate such stuff
no point putting up sucha nice performance
with the audience sleeping
oh well
alight a stop before my bus stop
walked home
stopped at 9th floor
walked all the way up to 13th floor
i had to walk an extra 2000 steps
than normal
so i walking all around today
i even helped to shift the chairs
usually i'll be lazy too
SEE
i'm trying hard
and i will see results!
i've resist pretty much temptation
and i will continue to do so!
ate pear and apple for lunch
thats enough
but
i'm feeling hungry after a while
nvm
i got kiwi and jackfruit
in my fridge
all piled and ready for my diet!
:DDD
going to go for a haircut
then i'll be all ready for the new year!
(:
and
my mom promised if
the osim slimming belt work
she would buy it for me
YAY!
:D
i'll force myself to do situpd
though i hate it alot
in the new year
i'll jog every sunday
i promise!
a way to release stress
HOHOHO
but after a month
i bet i'll stop all this shit
HAHA!

i've thought of my new year resolutions!
will post it up
some other times!
when i've finalised
the details
HOHO
i'm a piece of cock shit

and how's my new layout?
feel welcomed???
HAHA!
i spent the whole afternoon doing it
better appreciate
cause i'm making an effort
to let you enjoy!

took out my tag board
no one tags anyway

2005-12-27T20:42:00.000+08:00

feeling shit again
cant wait for school to reopen
after school reopens
i wouldnt have to cope myself at home
and think so much again
so fucked up
GRRRRRR
on the other hand
i dont wan school to reopen
cause i prolly have to face
THOSE shit again
i haven faced those shit for the whole entire 2 months
when i face THOSE shit again
i just dont noe wort to do!
hide myself in a corner and shit?
come on
i dont wanna face THOSE shit
nvm i got hairy!
and another reason
O lvls near
fuck
maybe i should just keep studying
til i go crazy!
anyway
there's still band to keep me occupied!
great
then i'll be in my own world again!
:D
when i'm in my own world
i dont think i have time to think about
THOSE shit again
and THOSE shit kinda piss me off
so yeah
locked myself up til after O's?
HAHA
thats's weird!
i wish we dont have to go to school
then we dont have to make friends
i feel like an anti social
i bet i wont enjoy next year
and again
i hope this year wont end

do you how it feels
to be insignificant?
how about trying it yrself?
i bet you dont noe
how nasty
how gruelling
it is

2005-12-27T14:08:00.000+08:00

back from the swim!
so tired!
but chat super alot with my sister!
:D
now she super motivated to study lors!
yeah!
sun's bright in the morning!
so i'm a little darker today
didnt really swim
just squat there and tan
why squat
cause the middle pool
was kinda shallow
so weird
going to study homeostasis!
(:
then study log!
:D
yyeeaahh

2005-12-26T22:29:00.000+08:00

i was in the dark
figuring out
wort part of my eyes was working
you see
we have rods and cones in our retina
rod is sensitive to light
while
cone is sensitive to color
so which one will be working
and which is not working
in the dark?
the rod is working more of course
then i was telling my sister
her rods and cones were all not working for nuts!
cause she boxed me
>.<

tml is the day
i'm going to shed some fats
is either i go swimming or jogging
but i will prefer swimming of course
cause i can get a pretty tan too
anyone wanna join me?
:d
come on!
be sporty!
ideal lifestyle huh?

2005-12-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

day out with bestie!
:DD

shopping with sister!
we had voucher
only spent like 100 bucks
causeway point got like
NOTHING!
only got a pretty cropped jacket
flowery one!
so sweet!
haiya
so disappointed
didnt get much
but nvm!
i can spend the rest at MANGO!
:DDD

2005-12-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

stomach flu in the morning
so uncomfortable!
felt btr
dad brought us out for lunch
meet lalu and rest later
went to expo
for carnival
didnt stay long
cause we didnt bear to spend any $$ there
>.<
went to hereen
got a top
walked around
got another top at forever 21
:DDD
for CNY!
stop shopping
but i cant stop
and i'm going shopping tml again
but with my sister this time
oh well
i cant control
lizi's been nice
she got me a tutor!
:D
there's hope for my maths ald!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!

2005-12-24T13:17:00.000+08:00

i always hate it when i have both parents at home
they nag non stop
wort a way to start a day
my father keeps doing stuff to my com
so obviously i cant do my bio notes
so i went to watch tv
cause my father was in my room
and i got scolded
my room got no place to hang clothes
they say i throw my clothes around
HELLO!
and my mother fucking smokes at home everyday
hoping to kill us soon!
fuck
wort a christmas eve
but good thing
i finished my bio notes
going to do maths
my parents wants me to study!
cause there's the big O
next year
oh well
wort's the point
the year is coming to an end soon
fuck

2005-12-23T22:00:00.000+08:00

the party was fine
kinda disappointing anyway
cause chayboona nd moxi didnt come
huai sian and amanda left
before i could even give them their present
wrapped presents for chayboon and moxi too
but too bad
they didnt come
so sad lars
games was tiring
ran all around
trying to make it fun for everyone to play
there wasnt alot of ppl
to start with anyway
everyone was lethargic
prolly because of band prac before
going to mentor primary school kids!
mr tan said we have to be patient
but
i think
i will polly RAIL and SCREAM at the kids
til they're terrified of me
but i dont like kids anyway
they're horrible
after the games
i just walked around
went up to band room
watched the videos
good job media!
(:
though i didnt do much
>.<
sorry!
hang around wih beat eloys and lizi
started talking abt our future!
ELOYS!
everyday manicure, YEAH!
everyday pedicure, YEAH!
everyday shopping, YEAH!
everyday bath in jacuzzi, YEAH!
:D
its just our common goal!
to be SHAO NAINAI! (:
wooohoo!
going to get another maths tutor and chem tutor!
hopefully for a whooping cheap fee!
:DDD
food was great!
great entertainment by mr tan too!
HOHOHO
some christmas wish
so lor sor!
>.<

sometimes
i think i really need to take things easy
haha
i'm forever making my life difficult
and end up
i'll just crumble up
think too much
when thing's are so simple
make a mountain out of a mole hill
dont have the strength to go on anymore
FANG SONG!
relax
:D
maybe just keep myself occupied with studying!
my goal!
to complete bio notes before christmas!
is that this sunday?
mug tml!
(:
think daddy's bringing me out for a movie tml
he's hardly on leave anyway
cool!

2005-12-22T20:35:00.000+08:00

been busy in school
for the past two days
pretty tiring!

ytd
went to school
band room's decorations are half way done
very tired already
got ourselves all dirtied
with glitter and glue and stuff
so icky
but haiya
still fun
left early
went for chirstmas party at jane's house
it wasnt really eactly a party
more of a dinner kinda thing
plain boring
i was kinda pissed off at first
then started talking
sat at the swing
and chat with kelvin
that guy's turning gay
haha!
but he still love to be BENG as ever
being a nice eprson
i served them and stuff
brought marshmallow for them too!
i bet they were exhilerated!
roasted marshmallow
nvr really taste it before
>.<
dinner was good
except
stuff george cooked
it looked and tasted kinda UNCOOK
ate alot!
from salad to beehoon
from chicken wing to hot dogs
from corn to fruit salad
oh well
i couldnt bear to see it wasted
(:

today!
do some final touches to the band room
slack all the way
its hard work ok!
so even if you find the bandroom UGLY
just fucking shut up
i would appreciate it
cause we put in alot effort okay
from like running all around
buying the decor shit
staying in sch
from morning 9am to 5pm
its tiring!
but worthwhile
if everyone loves the band room okay!

2005-12-20T23:51:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CINDY!
i miss you!
got alot to tell you
feeling shit as ever!
>.<
hurry come back singapore
and save me!

i wish i dont have to face you anymore
cause
its tiring to hear your
1001 excuses and crap
oh well
if you're not interested or wlling
just say
always come up with excuses
yr brain not tired arhs?